On being….
…Aware of my Patterns
Random musing- do you ever take the time to figure out what your patterns are? Not only the good/positive patterns, but those self destructive patterns as well?
Patterns are good because if they don’t serve you, you can nip them in the bud and complete some pretty amazing things.
For example- I have noticed that I have a few patterns that not only cause me disservice but harm me as well.
Resistance: I can be stubborn and resist what I know I should be doing because at the end of the day I am scared of being criticized for taking a stand and taking the lead on an issue.
Sugar: I love to eat sugar when I am feeling down, feeling bored or feeling like I should treat myself. Sugar (in its refined from) is some toxic bullshyt.
Procrastination: I am great at it and I tell myself I do my best work under pressure. Some of this is true. A big part of that however is when a deadline is fixed/firm, there is NO MORE TIME to fuck about. So I get it done. The strange thing is I procrastinate on my own work and not anybody else’s…go figure.
Hibernation: I am like a bear…I hibernate in the winter. Not on purpose- just how life happens…so maybe it is on purpose. Realizing this was a major epiphany for me.
I have more patterns but that’s all I feel like typing.
Why do these patterns matter?
Because they allow me to adjust my behaviors so that I can engage in activities that are supportive of me, I can eat whole clean foods that won’t kill me, I know to save money for those winter months when all work stops and I know that in order to maximize my productivity- I have to create a schedule and plan and stick to it.
Good Times.
